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Bibliophiles Anonymous

This is long and random, I just had to get it out there. So, I have a LOT of books. Three large bookshelves and two tiny ones in the dining room, a large one in my bedroom, and a few boxes full of books in our storage room. My mom is trying to make me sell a bunch of them...

It started when I was young. My mother read me every kids book under the sun, and anything she was reading at the time herself. I spent many a warm night curled up in my little princess bed, listening to my mom do the voices of Gandalf and Frodo, Mr. Tumnus and Aslan, Charlie and Willy Wonka.

In Jr High I had to fight with my teacher to read The Exorcist for our required daily reading. I worshiped at the alter of Stephen King, Jane Austen, and the Brontes. I decided I too wanted to be a writer. I discovered fun authors like Terry Pratchett and Douglas Adams. I read without restraint, and my mother never held me back. I could read anything I wanted just as long as I was reading.

In high school I discovered Dostoyevsky, Tolstoy, De Sade, JK Rowling, Francesca Lia Block, and Chekhov. I fell in love with Philip Larkin and found a new love of poetry.

I started reading every book that was being made or had been made into a movie I was interested in. Where the Heart Is, White Oleander, Prozac Nation, Girl Interrupted, The Virgin Suicides, Never Let Me Go, Memoirs of a Geisha.

I found books that helped me through problems like Cutting by: Steven Levenkron. I found books that made me understand myself and my disease. Dozens of clinical style books about Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia. Encounters with the Invisible by Dorothy Wall, and Diana's Story by Deric Longden made me feel that I wasn't alone. Osler's Web angered me and frustrated me, but opened my eyes to so so much regarding my disease.

After high school I discovered a new love of biographies, memoirs, and historical fiction and non-fiction. Freakonomics, The Tipping Point, Voluntary Madness, The Short Life and Long Times of Mrs. Beeton. I read about everything and everyone that interested me, and some that didn't. I read just about every book about the Victorian's and Edwardian's that my library had. I read classics that I had missed. Cold Comfort Farm, The Secret Garden, Peter Pan, The Turn of the Screw, the Anne of Green Gables series.

Thanks to the internet I discovered Etgar Keret, Banana Yoshimoto, Huraki Murakami, Ryu Murakami, Chuck Palahniuk, Jhumpa Lahiri, and so many more.

I learned that it's ok to read young adult novels when you're 20, 24, or 50. I read the Green Knowe series, A Series of Unfortunate Events, The Percy Jackson series, Tamora Pierce.

Books are my life. They comfort me when I'm scared, they perk me up when I'm sad, they make me cry when they're sad. My illness keeps me from doing so many things, but I can do anything in a book. I can learn about all the places I can't see, live the experiences I can't have.

I love the feel of books, the smell of books, the sight of a bookshelf overflowing with books. Going to a used bookstore is like getting high to me. I could spend hours going through the stacks finding the most random things, or picking up old favorites. Going into Borders is an exercise in restraint. If I have money on me, and there's a bookstore in my sights... you better believe that money will be gone by the end of the day, and there will be new books crammed on my shelves.

I don't know how I'm supposed to part with them. The ones I wont read again... sure. But how can you tell me to get rid of something I know I'll re-read and enjoy over and over again? Especially the ones that the library doesn't have. I've spent a fortune on some of these books! Some of them were given to me by people long gone, or found as a gift for me after a long long search (Jill, A Girl in Winter).

Am I a hoarder with my books? Probably. Is it unhealthy to be attached to books like this? Probably. But I just can't. I'll get rid of my manga and a few of my graphic novels. I'll get rid of the books that weren't so great, or I don't see myself reading again. But most of them... I'll box them up and put them in storage until I have my own place, and have more room for more bookshelves.

My future home will probably look something like Aunt Elinor's house in Inkheart, or Sylar's apartment in Heroes. And you know what? I'm fine with that.



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Feb. 17th, 2011 07:46 am (UTC)
I love this. I think you verbalized what I feel about books, but never could.

PS. I know for a fact my home needs to have Aunt Elinor's library, or else I'll be very sad.
Feb. 19th, 2011 01:16 am (UTC)
*blush* thanks ^_^ I never thought I'd be able to verbalize it, and have it make sense!

lol everyone I know who reads that book tells me they think of me when they get to Aunt Elinor's house in the book.
Feb. 17th, 2011 06:17 pm (UTC)
Sounds like I am with pr0n.. heh.. though books are more socially redeeming and I don't keep my pr0n around for very long.

In truth, I'm a bibliophile too.. though my collection has been weened over time due to moves, divorce, etc...
Feb. 19th, 2011 01:20 am (UTC)
LOL. My sister having my computer has really cut down on my porn consumption. Actually, it has TOTALLY stopped my porn consumption, because I'm afraid to look at porn on my "good" computer.

I have a Kindle, but I still have tons of books, and intend to buy more lol.
Feb. 19th, 2011 01:21 am (UTC)
google "truecrypt"
Feb. 19th, 2011 01:29 am (UTC)
Interesting *scratches chin* lol thank you
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